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Monday, 08 November 2010

  • It's so scary. When I look back at the past it makes me feel more uncomfortable. You're supposed to learn from your mistakes, so when it feels like it's happening all over again I just feel lost. Like when I fight with one of my parents. Or if I cry for just 5 minutes I feel like I am going to turn back to how I was. I wasn't even bad. I just wasn't happy. I don't know if I am forcing myself to feel happy. I think I am happy until something happens that gives me a flashback. Then I feel all stressed, and wonder what I have even accomplished in life and if I died right now would anyone really care. Or would they get over it after a month. That's what makes people want to do something amazing with their lives, so when they die they will be remembered. That feeling makes me want to stay at home and dissolve into nothing more. I'm scared. Not sure what of. But it is scary. It's bad how one rude comment or one argument can ruin a day. I wish I was the type of person that when threatened with something I'd say bring it, and mean it. When people say words don't hurt, that's only half true. They hurt when it's from someone you care about. Some people don't matter, therefore their comments truthfully don't matter. When it's someone you wish would just be proud of you, or stop judging you, it's totally different. Why do people always have to point out the negative. When something good is done, barely anyone ackknowledges. When you're upset, even less people seem to care. But when you mess up, say something wrong, or do something that maybe you shouldn't have everyone seems to have something to say then. Even the people you think are close to you. You know who your true friends are when you're at your worse. In that case I have 2 people who care about me. And 20 people who have something disapproving to say. I wish everyone would listen to the quote "if you have nothing nice to say then don't say nothing at all." The world would be a lot happier of a place.

Saturday, 06 November 2010

  • It's crazy how much I have changed in a year. I love change because change is never really bad, it's like progressing or evolution, making what you have better. My life gets better like every single day. It's so strange listening to people complain about the littlest things. Honestly, if it won't bother you in a week from now, why are you worrying about it? I am absolutely never stressed, at this point in my life I have nothing to be stressed out about. I have like 1000 different choices. And thinking about a month, a year, or like 20 years from now just excites me! I have done absolutely nothing in my life that I regret. And am quite happy to say for the most part I have never looked back at a time and said "I wish I would have went out that one night, or talked to this person, orr done anything" because I always do end up doing it! The only thing that I don't like is how I don't give myself enough credit. I know I am smart, funny, and pretty. Like I honestly believe I could accomplish anything in the world if I wanted to. Without a doubt. Nothing is unreachable for me. I just don't give myself enough credit. I need to find a passion over something and then go for it! That's the problem, I'm too laid back therefore don't worry about anything in particular, so I don't have a true passion for anything. I really enjoy that I don't worry of things that I see nothing to worry about, but kind of wish I cared about something enough to try to change it. Would give life more meaning to it I guess. I would also like to totally change a quote. Karma's a bitch. Karma is the farthest from a bitch, unless you are a bitch. I have been nice to people that I don't even notice that I am nice too, and in return they saved my ass when I needed them. It feels good to know that people like me, and want to help me, because I have always been nice and trustworthy to them. So, karma is a very nice actually :) I don't know if it's because I have been reading more lately, or if a new wave has come over me, but I feel so much better about life. It is so easy to cut people out of your life. Certain people you think it would be hard to do. I have cut so many negative people out of my life lately, and it has made me that much more happy. It's not very hard to do and has a huge impact! It's horrible how people always say "this world is such a bad place" when it really isn't at all. People hear things on the news about rapings, murders, pedo's, and a bunch of really fucked up stuff. I read this somewhere, people like that are always seen on the news, but they are on the news because they are the exception. They are different, they are the extremists, so you hear about them. You don't usually hear about the majority, of good, normal people. So everyone just thinks the world is a horrible place. You only hear the people that scream loud enough to be heard, not the average peaceful person. Anyways, I'm happy. I've been happy for at least a month. I haven't cried in I can not even remember how long. I wish more people would just get over their little problems and realize life is great, you just got put up or shut up.

     

Tuesday, 13 April 2010

  • water makes me less thirsty but i am always thirsty!

    i have a smile glued on my face lately, it is so strange haha. life's good, nothing really to complain about, everyone talks to me lately and it is fun fun fun, probably because i feel so high all the time so i just talk and talk. i know how annoying people just keep on talking, it feels good to blah blah even when no one is listening. i should be sleeping. no sleep for meeee tonight! i miss my parents :( i wish they didn't leave, jeremy is never here when they go and i am home alone a lot. it's good though because soon i will have to be on my own all the time!! booboo

Monday, 08 March 2010

  • lalaalalaalalalalalla :) haha

    i like my life. like, whenever anything bad happens to me, eventually it goes away. just gotta thin posy :) hahaha i should be sleeping, but hairspray started at 11 and isn't over until 1:30  so i have a feeling i might be up til then :o

Tuesday, 05 January 2010

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    Nah, I was just randomly commenting people. You looked interesting. And, well, you were.
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